I Added My MySpace Blogs Here...

I decided to add all my MySpace blogs because if I was to start over, explaining my life and all the troubles and crap going on, I probably would have exploded. If you do decide to read any of these, it explains my life for the past 2 years. Of course there are more issues I am dealing with, but I will take my time to vent on them later. My anxiety and depression levels are through the roof at this point.
There is an issue that has been bugging me lately, however, and that is that President Obama wants to grant retroactive Social Security eligibility to illegal immigrants who gain citizenship through an amnesty program. I can't believe that should even happen. I was born and raised in the USA and I have worked since I was 14 years old. I have been out of work due to an injury on the job and I did collect Workmans Comp for some time, but eventually took a small settlement as I got so tired of WC telling me how to live my life and they had me so messed up emotionally. I applied for SSDI 2+ years ago and have been waiting for my appeal hearing for over a year and a half now. I cannot work and haven't worked for over 4 years now. My doctor has put me through the grinder as far as tests and such ad we just recently got my diagnosis to hopefully fix the problem that causes me pain. My problem is, I am legally trying to get SSDI as I am truly unable to work and have gone through all the legal BS and I have to fight for what is rightfully mine. I am not a slacker, I would rather be working. I am stuck in the house for days at a time and it isn't fair that I can't get my SSDI. I know people who do not need SSDI and are getting it and it pisses me off as these are the people who ruin for those really in need. AAAARRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! I do have an attorney to help me when my hearing comes and I pray I can recieve it. If you read my other posts here, you will see my husband is out of work due to an injury he received on his job and has been out for almost a year and he is fighting for Workmans Comp. This country is so messed up when it comes to those really in need.
The stress is really taking it's toll on both my hubby and myself as we have been depressed, frustrated and just totally beaten down at this point. We are fighting to keep our home and see if we can get emergency help, which we were turned down initially, but had to appeal, so waiting for that. We also have to file bankruptcy as the only income we hav coming in pays for utilities, food, transportation and the bankruptcy attorney. It is funny that the government spent billions to bail out these banks, but we are having a hard time paying our bills. Our mortgage company is Bank of America and I know they received a good chunk of bailout funds, so why not help us??? It is a vicious cycle.
Anyway, done venting for now...Please pray for us and our country that God will get us through this hard time. As I write this, my hubby is groaning in pain from the pain in his back. I hate to see him like this and it is upsetting.
Thanks for listening.